Monday, April 19, 2010
Loving kindness unit 4
When I first listened to the audio, I just listened to it all the way through to get a feel for it. I played it again and tried to concentrate on what I was instructed to do, and what come to me was my mother. She died in November 2007 with cancer. I had such warm feeling that came over me when I saw her imagine in my mind, that I had tears come to my eyes, but it was a good feeling, not sad, just loving, something that I miss from her a lot! I ended up losing my concentration when my husband came in and asked what in the world are you listening too! So, I guess I need to make sure I will be completely uninterrupted next time I try. I really felt I was actually getting something from this exercise.
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Sorry to hear about your mom. That is a big piece of you that I am sure you are missing. I still turn to my mom even when I am sick. She is in Maine and I am in Arkansas but just to hear her voice is amazing medicine.
ReplyDeleteSeeing her image should give you a great calmness that she is still with you. She must be very happy you took this class and she will be able to communicate with you in a small way. Keep the memories alive; it is all we have sometimes.
I got the same response from my parents when they were here and I was in seminar. At one point they were both listening and then they fell asleep...LOL it was funny.
My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Sorry to hear about your mother! I couldn't imagine how you miss her! The exercises were amazingly relaxing and the sound of the ocean made me want to be in some sun and sand! My favorite part of the exercise was when the autor described breathing in suffering and breathing out peace, health, happiness, and wellenss. They then said the loving kindness would dissolve the suffering. What a concept!
ReplyDeleteI am very sorry to hear about your mother. It was great that you started to feel a connection with her through this exercise...until of course your hubby came in and interrupted. I have a hard time planning time to do my relaxation exercises too because I either have a husband making all kinds of racket or a son who wants to be fed. And I'm afaid that if I do it right before bed I will either fall asleep in the floor with the CD play over and over again or the exercise will stimulate my brain and keep me from falling asleep. Planning is the most difficult thing to work around...you are not alone. So maybe next time you will get a chance to complete it and bring back that feeling that you had when you imagined your mother. And you'll figure out the best times to do this exercise so you can get the most out of it.
ReplyDeleteI am sorry for your loss and can identify with what you are going through. I need to find a more private time to do this also as my husband came in wondering what I was doing and then wanted to know if it was helping because he was hungry for dinner. I'm working on my schedule needless to say.
ReplyDeleteSo very sorry for your loss. The same kind of thing happened to me during the exercise. I thought of my Mom and Dad who both died of cancer years ago and it made me sad but I also felt peace. I miss them both everyday and I know you too must miss your Mom but it will get better in time.
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